Got Nothing Left Guys

I hate so much of myself these days guys. I see every bit of fat I have gained, I see nothing but an ugly useless native when I look in the mirror. I lost my job and am now jobless and might have to use welfare. I hate every single thing about myself. I keepContinue reading “Got Nothing Left Guys”

Day 40- Gotta Keep On Fighting

I love hard and intensely. When I feel my heart is threatened, I build up walls to avoid the pain that has always come from feeling anything at all. I am afraid of being left behind but prepare for it by pushing away, so I never have to worry about it happening. Oh Life, HowContinue reading “Day 40- Gotta Keep On Fighting”

Day 38- Good Morning Depression

I am on a familiar edge. I don’t know why I feel as I do these days. I don’t feel good enough for anyone. I feel like just another birthmother. I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone because no one can understand what I am feeling. Everything I say offends someone. I feelContinue reading “Day 38- Good Morning Depression”

Fergus Falls Asylum

Hello my wonderful readers, isn’t it a beautiful day? So I took a drive out to Fergus Falls because if I am still too tired to get my butt in the gym why not do what my original plan for yesterday was, right? Good new is, its still standing! Well….part of it anyways. It lookedContinue reading “Fergus Falls Asylum”

Day 17- Inside My Head

I feel like every move I make needs to be calculated, as if the smallest mistake can bring down any sort of progress I have made. I have only been able to obtain so much of a good thing before I ruin it. The saying two steps forward one step back has always been moreContinue reading “Day 17- Inside My Head”