Day 10 Baby Steps

  I felt a bit of hopelessness when I heard Demi Lovato overdosed on heroin. It is sad to think that someone who has access to the top of the line treatment facilities and had been sober six years can still relapse. I can only imagine the emptiness and failure she felt with her firstContinue reading “Day 10 Baby Steps”

Day 9- Weak Little Girl

A little girl, barely 3 years old now, sits and cowers behind a sofa. The man is using the bathroom. She knows what he will do for he has done it many times. He comes out and calls for her. She pretends to play hide and seek, maybe, just maybe, she can make him notContinue reading “Day 9- Weak Little Girl”

Calm

I love these white skies, its like being in a dream, parts might be nightmares, but as long as its a dream I can wake up to the sun. The sun would not be welcomed right now anyways. It’s easier to be patient in a dream. ”I can lie, say I like it like that,Continue reading “Calm”

Day 8- A Shard Of My Past

  I have always felt in the way and that nothing I do is right. The few times I have felt I’ve done something decent have always involved some sort of sacrifice of myself. As a kid if I was unable to figure something out it would frustrate my parents, in turn, I would breakContinue reading “Day 8- A Shard Of My Past”

Day 7- Self-insight

  Turns out a good binging and purging session can have similar side effects of a hangover. Something strange happened yesterday that really made me think of why I binge and purge. I ate a breakfast I was satisfied with and felt great. I went to donate plasma and even bought a new pair ofContinue reading “Day 7- Self-insight”