Day 47- 3 Phobias

I have a deathly fear of insects. I have not always been this way. In fact, I recall when I was seven and not being afraid at all. I was playing outside our camper one day (we had no home at this time so had to stay in a camper while my parents looked forContinue reading “Day 47- 3 Phobias”

Sorta Positive, Not Really LOL

  How does one describe growing up poor or in poverty and trying to get out? Trying to be better than their parents and surroundings but still only knowing that way of living? That way of coping? In my fucked up life I have already done better than my parents but still I am nothing. IContinue reading “Sorta Positive, Not Really LOL”

Day 45- Its My Friday!

I woke up very off this morning and a tad bit emotional but physically feeling pretty well. I cannot wait till daylight savings time so its lighter earlier. I do get uneasy being out alone in the dark. I do not like the dark in general actually…. but enjoy night time in some contradictory way.Continue reading “Day 45- Its My Friday!”

Day 44- I Am Here

I started the day by oversleeping. What do I write about when life is good? It is stressful, but good. I am very boring to myself. Right now, my life is work, school, and trying my best to make time for my family. Even though school just started last week, I haven’t seen my daughterContinue reading “Day 44- I Am Here”

Got Nothing Left Guys

I hate so much of myself these days guys. I see every bit of fat I have gained, I see nothing but an ugly useless native when I look in the mirror. I lost my job and am now jobless and might have to use welfare. I hate every single thing about myself. I keepContinue reading “Got Nothing Left Guys”