HELLO!

Gotta have my dramatic moment… I know what is meant to be will be but I feel like I am screaming inside for something to just work out in terms of job searching. I know everything in my life has gone according to some grand designed plan, I realized this last night, I just wishContinue reading “HELLO!”

Awake and Grumbly

My thoughts are a little better so far today. My back is stiff, I think I slept wrong. I had about ten hours of sleep. A majority of the day yesterday I spent laying around. My head does not feel so full of pressure so thats nice, the ache has worn off a little. IContinue reading “Awake and Grumbly”

Sober Day 5…ugh.

I think the worst part about getting sober is the possibility that maybe I am just permanently screwed up and emotionally unstable. Like when I was bulimic I could always just blame instability on hormones, when I was a teenager I could blame it on my childhood abuse, as I got older I could blameContinue reading “Sober Day 5…ugh.”

Drained

You ever have those nightmares you cannot get out of? You know your dreaming and you know it’s going to get really bad and so you force yourself to wake up, but your not really awake. So than you force your self awake again, but again, you feel awake but you know you aren’t, youContinue reading “Drained”

First Reading

Well, I thought I would start that reading I said I was thinking about, please forgive the awkwardness. Also pay no attention to my cats trying to kill each other or Bailey being Bailey. It’s been just a blah couple days. I applied for a second job yesterday at the liquor store neighboring me. IContinue reading “First Reading”