Day 12- Short & Sweet

  I almost forgot how bad a full-blown anxiety attack can feel and last night was not the worst one I’ve ever felt either. I am still happy my daughter’s mom came over to hold me through the worst of it. I do not remember all of it except the pain and coldness. My firstContinue reading “Day 12- Short & Sweet”

Day 10 Baby Steps

  I felt a bit of hopelessness when I heard Demi Lovato overdosed on heroin. It is sad to think that someone who has access to the top of the line treatment facilities and had been sober six years can still relapse. I can only imagine the emptiness and failure she felt with her firstContinue reading “Day 10 Baby Steps”

Calm

I love these white skies, its like being in a dream, parts might be nightmares, but as long as its a dream I can wake up to the sun. The sun would not be welcomed right now anyways. It’s easier to be patient in a dream. ”I can lie, say I like it like that,Continue reading “Calm”

Don’t Give Up

When you are down on your luck it is natural to go through every mistake in your life and or the recent decisions that got you to that point; natural, but also not healthy. Life is a gamble, win some lose some, but what your playing for determines the outcome. If you play for moneyContinue reading “Don’t Give Up”

F.U.

Tightness in the chest, holding back tears, not being strong enough to and having moments of crying. Smile, try to enjoy the time you have. Laugh, live, and love they say. Cleanse the energy around you to breath, hold onto your black tourmaline for comfort. A sickening sinking feeling when you know your past willContinue reading “F.U.”