Got Nothing Left Guys

I hate so much of myself these days guys. I see every bit of fat I have gained, I see nothing but an ugly useless native when I look in the mirror. I lost my job and am now jobless and might have to use welfare. I hate every single thing about myself. I keepContinue reading “Got Nothing Left Guys”

Day 43-Fucking Mondays

I am alive and well peeps, I wouldn’t intentionally miss a post. I woke up this morning feeling absolutely great but then I got to work, and it was a total shit show. I ran around ragged all day at work. I survived the day and once I got home, I hit the books. MyContinue reading “Day 43-Fucking Mondays”

Day 41- Small But I’m Happy

First week of school coming to a close and let me tell you….it was rough a rough week. I am finally getting caught back up to where I wanted to be academically (in other words ahead). I admit for a while there I had the whole “it’s the end of the world” type thoughts runningContinue reading “Day 41- Small But I’m Happy”

Day 39- Just Another Birthmother

I have mentioned previously being adopted. I have also briefly talked about giving up my daughter also. I wish I could say that both were happy for everyone involved. I love my parents and am close to them, I have not always been that way. I of course held a lot against them growing upContinue reading “Day 39- Just Another Birthmother”

Day 38- Good Morning Depression

I am on a familiar edge. I don’t know why I feel as I do these days. I don’t feel good enough for anyone. I feel like just another birthmother. I don’t feel like I can talk to anyone because no one can understand what I am feeling. Everything I say offends someone. I feelContinue reading “Day 38- Good Morning Depression”