Hearty Soup Day

Note to self, if I want to feel like shit then go ahead and eat a crud load of junk food. This is what I did last night at work. I am not sure why I binged, I did not purge though but it was so uncomfortable. And to be fair it wasn’t near asContinue reading “Hearty Soup Day”

Day 25-Blabbering

I looked up pictures of Robin William’s death. I have always done this, looking up dead people. The first dead person I saw was when I was four at a funeral for someone in the village. I remember seeing people cry and thought the body looked weird. I can still see the body occasionally.  LookingContinue reading “Day 25-Blabbering”

Day 22- Just One More Chance

My ten-year high school reunion was this weekend, I didn’t go of course. I do not miss adolescence. I find it weird when people say they wish they were kids again or to be back in high school because life was easier. I hated my life growing up and could not wait to be onContinue reading “Day 22- Just One More Chance”

Interlude?

Big eyes stare up afraid, cold eyes glare down She wants her mom, where is her mom? Non-understandable pain, all too familiar Realism drifts away, her safe place appears Verity drifts back, she no longer wants her mom, Crying, anxious, angry, cold, big eyes lose their innocence, Other kids are taught to dream big, SheContinue reading “Interlude?”

Day 19- Side Thought

When anyone has ever asked me what my goals are in life I have always responded “to survive.” However now I am starting to realize that a goal of surviving means only to exist. After begging my body to let me die so many times I am realizing existing is not enough anymore. If IContinue reading “Day 19- Side Thought”