Ello

59 days sober…third day attempting to be bulimia free. Church bells ringing, mild headache, feeling empty, I am hungry, but not for any food in particular. The birds are chirping, the sky is clear, golden sunlight fills my apartment, beautiful plants hanging all around me…why do I not feel fulfilled? Am I still recovering fromContinue reading “Ello”

Serendipity

I realized something last night. I was impulsively buying food for a binging and purging session. When I tried talking myself out of it I started having the reality of this world hit me, which in turn made me extremely anxious, scared, and overwhelmed. I feel like that was the closest I have been toContinue reading “Serendipity”

Perseverance

She was never praised for being beautiful or smart…quite the opposite reallyMany found her stupidMost found her uglySometimes even disgustingShe was average in grades, too shy for sports, never amounted to anything in talent, and was often an outcast and bullied for being too socially awkwardVery few believed she could succeed at life, so sheContinue reading “Perseverance”