Day 20- Enjoy Your Saturday

This is my 20th day of opening up to the world and sometimes I feel more alone than ever. I have become naked and vulnerable and still feel hopeless anyone will ever truly understand me. A friend/follower asked me yesterday if I ever held my past against my parents. The truth is that I didContinue reading “Day 20- Enjoy Your Saturday”

Day 14- Fluke

  I have been contemplating going back to college to finish up my associate degree. I am a few classes away from obtaining it, so I am weighing the pros and cons. I was going for Biology and Microbiology but flunked/dropped out because I was with an abusive ex (yes, stupid, and it was honestlyContinue reading “Day 14- Fluke”

Day 13- Firsts

  The first time I purged was as typical as any other persons first self-vomiting. I did it because I needed to feel in control of the chaos surrounding my life. It was an exhilarating feeling. It was actually pretty hard to do and hurt a bit, but I felt a short lived high. ItContinue reading “Day 13- Firsts”

Day 11- Alone

  I was always the loser in school. Whether it was various villages when a kid or going to school in North Dakota, I was always the different one. When younger I still had a few friends but once I moved to North Dakota, I really didn’t have any. I was fat and ugly whenContinue reading “Day 11- Alone”

Day 6- Irony

  A week ago, my focus was to document recovery from my eating disorder. To my amusement it has been about recovery from alcohol instead. I know I have said before they come hand in hand, but my goal was to be a guide to others with eating disorders. I am sure however there areContinue reading “Day 6- Irony”