Change starts with regret I guess

So, I am sure many are dying to know how I’ve fucked things up, but maybe that was a little dramatic. I haven’t fucked everything up yet but honestly have probably come fairly close. So, lets just be real here. I have been wanting to quit drinking for awhile now, very strongly at least aContinue reading “Change starts with regret I guess”

Staying Positive

  My sleep concoction lately has been 1/2- a full bottle of wine with a melatonin to finish knocking me out. So in the mornings I am back to coffee. I need to get off that cycle. I know I have to actually. So last night when I got home from the liquor store IContinue reading “Staying Positive”

Just Another Sitting Duck

An inch of progress on the outside could be miles on the inside. Garbage will always be garbage and garbage will always be given up on, maybe thats why we stay garbage. Soon to be more of us in this economy that will soon crumble by the looks of things. God only cares about thoseContinue reading “Just Another Sitting Duck”

Day 51- Trying To Stay Strong

I cannot say I am doing well; however, I can say that I am average. It is so easy for my daughters’ mother to say see a therapist, honestly though after about the eighth one I realized that the reason I can’t be helped is because psychology just isn’t there yet with understanding my trauma.Continue reading “Day 51- Trying To Stay Strong”

Day 50- Frustration

I wonder if there will ever be a time in my life that I permanently want to live. Instead I feel like I am always fighting the depression of wanting to die. I know these feelings will always pass, normally after a few hours, sometimes after a week. I suppose there have been the timesContinue reading “Day 50- Frustration”