Ello

59 days sober…third day attempting to be bulimia free. Church bells ringing, mild headache, feeling empty, I am hungry, but not for any food in particular. The birds are chirping, the sky is clear, golden sunlight fills my apartment, beautiful plants hanging all around me…why do I not feel fulfilled? Am I still recovering fromContinue reading “Ello”

58 Days Sober

Today is 58 days sober and $870 and 348 hours have been saved by not drinking. Yesterday I did not binge or purge at all. I am starting to feel like I am getting my ambition and mental clarity back. Its slow…but its there. I realize whenever I think about my daughter I feel veryContinue reading “58 Days Sober”

Chemtrails

Lets talk about chemtrails, aka weather modification, or cloud seeding to be exact. So we all know I moved to a small town outside of the city back in November. Out where I live, Ice Crystal Engineering, is the main manufacturing hub for cloud seeding materials. I was always a “conspiracy theorist” when it cameContinue reading “Chemtrails”

Stay Positive

I am 55 days sober, $825 and 330 hours saved. We will just say day 1 bulimia free. That is okay though, I am hopefully going to see someone who can give me a new perspective of how to go about handling it. I see my doctor today about the headaches, as long as itContinue reading “Stay Positive”

Disposition

Hello friends. It is 54 days sober, $810 and 324 hours saved not drinking. I wish I could be proud of myself but I am just constantly exhausted. This lack of energy started a few weeks ago. I swore it was PMSing, but now I am wondering if there is something physically wrong if ifContinue reading “Disposition”