Live

“Don’t be afraid of death; be afraid of an unlived life. You don’t have to live forever, you just have to live.” I had that tattooed on my forearm after jumping out of a plane this last summer. I had said for years I would skydive but always had excuses not to, normally financial, butContinue reading “Live”

I Will Suceed

Disassociation, when my mind tells me no….I don’t want it…I want to be better…I break away, feel nothing, and succumb to the habit. I know I will regret the drink in the morning, yet I do it anyways. Every morning, even if I am not sick, I still wish I wouldn’t have. All day IContinue reading “I Will Suceed”

Just Stop

My fathers uncle fought in World War II. He was a captain for the boats that dropped soldiers off at the Banks of Normandy. I am not sure how familiar many are with the event, after all I know more and more schools in America are getting rid of teaching such things. Anyways, he blamedContinue reading “Just Stop”

Day 3 Sober and Such

So this is my third day of sobriety, clean, eating normal, and no purging. My mind is foggy, my mouth has a weird sweet taste to it, and I feel semi bloated but not terrible. The scale has pretty much stayed the same but I do not know if I should even be looking atContinue reading “Day 3 Sober and Such”

HELLO!

Gotta have my dramatic moment… I know what is meant to be will be but I feel like I am screaming inside for something to just work out in terms of job searching. I know everything in my life has gone according to some grand designed plan, I realized this last night, I just wishContinue reading “HELLO!”