I Tried

I am nothing. I am not holding on, I can’t. Sometimes people get to a point where they realize so many people would be better off without them, and sometimes one can already see those changes. Friends and family pull away and eventually there is no one left to talk to, no shoulder left toContinue reading “I Tried”

Got Nothing Left Guys

I hate so much of myself these days guys. I see every bit of fat I have gained, I see nothing but an ugly useless native when I look in the mirror. I lost my job and am now jobless and might have to use welfare. I hate every single thing about myself. I keepContinue reading “Got Nothing Left Guys”

Just Keep Walking

Well, I may have royally fucked up peeps. Its all good I suppose. I mean, I will probably lose my job, but I hate it anyways so I have mixed feelings. Like I have obviously been trying to find something for quite a while now, I just wasn’t expecting something small to become a bigContinue reading “Just Keep Walking”

No Real Subject

Another restless night. I suppose I should be happy though, 6 hours and 58 minutes of sleep and 70% sleep quality. Still only a 14% REM cycle and it happened pretty much all at once towards the end of my sleep rather than a cycle. I think I will be buying some melatonin. We allContinue reading “No Real Subject”

Just Sadness

You ever wake up one day feeling strong and just really good and everything is good? And then its not?  You shower, dress nice, put your makeup on perfectly, and just feel really good, and than you don’t, because you realize again every way you feel is wrong. You love wrong, you care wrong, youContinue reading “Just Sadness”