Change

Okay, well, I cant realistically leave the liquor store. I am guaranteed my hours there and I can’t realistically wait three weeks for a first paycheck from a new place. So, I am going to try it out. Honestly my mindset right now is that I feel so like a piece of shit and hateContinue reading “Change”

Change starts with regret I guess

So, I am sure many are dying to know how I’ve fucked things up, but maybe that was a little dramatic. I haven’t fucked everything up yet but honestly have probably come fairly close. So, lets just be real here. I have been wanting to quit drinking for awhile now, very strongly at least aContinue reading “Change starts with regret I guess”

Sobriety again I guess

Well peeps, I just cant seem to stop fucking up. I put my notice in for the liquor store today. Its a bummer because I quite enjoy working there but theres too much temptation to down all the liquor and I am giving in a lot. Theres no enjoyment in it, I am just bingeContinue reading “Sobriety again I guess”

Life’s Okay

We had quite the storm last night. I woke up around 3 am to the loudest thunder and what I read were 80 mph winds. My flowers are a little toppled but I think they will spring back up. I have three flowers now actually that I have grown on my own, I feel quiteContinue reading “Life’s Okay”

Confuzzled

“I wanna stay inside all day I want the world to go away I want blood, guts, and chocolate cake I wanna be a real fake Yeah, I wish I’d been, I wish I’d been, a teen, teen idle Wish I’d been a prom queen, fighting for the title Instead of being sixteen and burningContinue reading “Confuzzled”