Hello my wonderful readers, long time eh? I wish I could say things have been going well and that is why I have not posted in weeks. It is honestly quite the opposite and just trying to hold on and be positive. I am finding though that is getting harder and harder to do as time goes on. Its starting to become very lonely without friends and family. Everyone seems to have each other but really I am realizing more and more I don’t really have anyone. Its no ones fault really, just everyone has stuff going on. I don’t really know how I should think or feel these days. Most days I want to cry and scream but I wont let myself be that weak. I just keep myself busy by working 60-70 hour weeks. I really miss my daughter. I wish I would have been able to give her one last big hug and kiss. I don’t think I have ever gone this long without seeing her. I tell myself not to be so dramatic and stupid with my feelings. I miss my best friends. I really don’t have anyone who has the time to listen or even really cares what I am feeling, so thought I would just give a small blog. I feel selfish for thinking these stupid emotions. I have it better than most. I don’t know…maybe writing shit down to no one will help. I am okay though, I’m just continuing to move forward and making financial goals and whatnot. Life should be perfect lol, but ironically it is not. I will post more, just wanted people to know I am still here.