An inch of progress on the outside could be miles on the inside. Garbage will always be garbage and garbage will always be given up on, maybe thats why we stay garbage. Soon to be more of us in this economy that will soon crumble by the looks of things. God only cares about those who have money, at least thats the world I have always observed. Maybe thats why I turned to energy and the universe to help me. But maybe we really are all alone. My dreams tell me otherwise though. I always knew something bad would happen, this still doesn’t feel like it though. Maybe I am not worried about this because my dreams have always show much much worst. I know I deserve all my misfortune, I’ve deserved it my whole life. I know psychology says a victim should never blame themselves but I did, I know I fucked up somewhere along the lines before this life. People say this life is the real Hell, that doesn’t make sense when there are people who have never suffered. Rape, Trauma, Molestation, Beatings, Suicide, Bullying, many of us have suffered for years and are beyond repair, and it will always show and we will always make mistakes. Maybe this life really is Hell, except I have seen that and this isn’t it. You ever look at those perfect people in perfect houses with perfect jobs who can handle life perfectly and wonder wtf you ever did do deserve what you got? Yeah, me too. Well peeps, its going to get tougher, many of us will probably end up homeless, yet again. Money is the root of all evil and we live in a world where money makes it go round. Maybe this really is a circle of hell, repeat, repeat, repeat, because your mind is weak and you will always fuck up. Well, if history repeats itself than lets see next should come homelessness, rape, a good few beatings, robbery, building back up, maybe getting just a little higher than now, than fuck up, fall, homeless, beaten to death, sodomized, than become another native body disposed of in a desert. Sounds right.