Today I did something I don’t remember the last time that I did and that was finish a book. While this might seem trivial, for someone who has never been able to comprehend more than a couple paragraphs at a time, reading a 705 page book is actually quite an accomplishment. It’s title is Imaginary Friend by Stephen Chbosky, a very good read, a little spiritual and creepy but good none the less.
I spent a good chunk of my weekend reading. The book I finished was one I got at Christmas and I would read a little bit every night before bed but for some reason I told myself I wanted to finish it this holiday weekend as I don’t finish things, like ever. So I achieved my goal and am proud.
It was actually very relaxing to have a blizzard go on outside and be curled up in my blanket on the couch with tea. I had my frankincense/myrrh incense going. It’s where I have wanted to see myself for so long but some addiction would always get in the way, whether it be alcohol, purging, mental torment, just anything. It’s relaxing to be free.
Friday and Saturday night hockey was going on. We won both games, first game 4-0 and second game 5-1 I believe. There was a nice fight Saturday nights game, even the other teams goalie was in on it. Had to take about a 10 minute recess so all the penalties and whatnot could be written down, I think at the end there were 8 or 9.
I am starting to get somewhat used to all the alcohol at the arena. It use to be really hard not to drink when everyone around me would drink, especially since this year they really upped the availability of hard liquor, but this weekend it was actually pretty easy. I did have some cravings but holding onto my iolite stone actually seemed to really help with the worst craving. It was weird actually because when I took out my iolite the cravings were washed over with thinking about how great I would feel the next day. I don’t really know how crystals work yet since I am still in the very way beginning but it’s nice to feel the positive energy.
Side note: I don’t understand why people think its so funny and cool to be one of the drunkest states.
I decided to do that monster of a machine again this morning but for a whole hour! Not because I wanted to (I very much hated it like 15 minutes in) but because I made it a goal. Actually it wasn’t even a goal right way, I originally thought I was on the half hour workout till I realized I was on the hour and decided I was going for the hour, it lasted forever but I feel great. My thighs are definitely sore already but it’s a good sore. It’s the one that is like a stair climber mixed in with an elliptical. I do still want to try some classes, its just a matter of getting my butt into them. There might be a little nervousness of not wanting to look like an idiot either. I will get into it eventually lol.
I ate a lot of tacos this weekend, I am just really in a taco phase. I use the good grains blue taco shells, ground turkey, and peppers, and a small amount of cheese. It was pretty much every meal this weekend with a fruit added. Tacos are just delicious. Fruit is delicious. Food is just good and enjoyable.
My tummy is feeling really good and regular. The worst I think is long over. Now I just have to be good to myself to keep it that way.
Okay, so I believe I mentioned using a patchouli essential oil roll on, if not oops, but I started it like last weekend. So since it was working so well, this weekend I bought a lava rock ball for my pendant and an oil for it, Prairie Sage Flower, it’s a mixture of lavender, sage, spearmint, lemongrass, and rosemary, and it is amazing. I just feel grounded and positive. I also bought Bailey a spray that is supposed to help with his anxiety which I have noticed it very much does because I am able to brush him. I think many more oils are in my future. I know some you have to be careful with around pets though so I will have to research that more.
There is not much going on other than that, still waiting to hear back from employment opportunities. I have had a lot of passes but that is okay. I will just keep on trying. One step forward, two steps back, get a running start, jump, fall of the cliff and fail, try again till you reach the other side, right? Have a good day meh readers, be good to yourselves, keep living the journey, ground yourself, and enjoy life.